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This might be my last entry. Or not, I do not know.

Been thinking lots lately, after so many things that had happened in my life over the past month. Finally came to this conclusion. I have since lost the feeling which i once had to blog. Hence, no point forcing it. Until the day i find the right feelings back, or call it passion, then only would i start to blog once more.

These past few days, i've not been able to control my emotions. My mind always wandering off to some place far, far away. It was like as though i was living in my own world, doing my own things. I was disturbed and i know that. My family and friends were all worried for me as i looked kinda restless and sick(which i really was). When i came back down to earth, i would think hard over what i was dreaming bout. I thought i knew what the problem was but actually i was wrong. It only took me till this morning to realise something. I recalled hearing this from someone in the past, but unfortunately i could not remember who that person was anymore.

"In order to love others, you got to first love yourself the way you want to love them. Because your extent of love for others is only dependent on your extent of love for yourself."

Maybe this phrase was right. I don't love myself anymore. I used to but not now. When did it happen? I don't even know nor realised it. I'm starting to be real afraid. Bout to freak out anytime cos i do not know what i would do or who i would caused hurt to in future. What should i do? I'm really at a loss. Did all these started during that period of time in my life last year? I thought I had forgiven, but I came to realise I had not. I have to first forgive myself, in order to forgive others.

You guys might not have any idea what is going on. But this is my own way of forgiveness to myself. I hoped and pray sincerely that god would help me pull through this difficult tide in my life. To be a changed person once everything has settled down.

To all my friends, be it close or not so close, thanks for all your support during these few months. I know i have caused a few major controversy over what i said in a few blogs in the past. I apologised for my silly actions. Will let everyone know i'm back if i ever decided to blog again.

Take care. I luv u all. Au revoir...

2 0103 - Please Forgive Me by Bryan Adams