Living for a New Tomorrow.

Thursday, November 02, 2006

Remembered a few entries ago, i sort of criticized someone. Well, talked to her over the phone for a very long time last nite. She sort of knew that i was referring to her hence she called me late in the nite to explain her innocence. Though i felt that there wasn't any real need in the beginning, but after reconsideration, i decided to hear her out, wanted to hear for myself what she has got to say & explain. We ended up talking bout alot of stuffs, that main problem, her side of story, her relationship problems with her ex & my buddy, & even to some extend, stuffs regarding that "rabbit". Anyway, after hearing her version of events with regards to that grave matter in which she "cheated" us, somehow or rather, though i still chose to believe in my friend more as he did provide us with the necessary proof, but deep down in my heart, i decided to give her one last chance. Who knows for sure the exact truth, as maybe she's innocent afterall. Moreover, i've not yet fully looked into this matter yet as our exams were round the corner, but here, i was like fully accusing her, passing out the death sentence even before the verdict is out yet. I apologised to her on that. "If ya reading it now, I'm sorry that i've accused u fully even though i haven't got the facts right yet." All i wanna do now would be to wait till our last paper is over before investigating into this problem. Furthermore, i did explained to her that we must not be selfish enough to only think bout proving her innocence as by looking into this matter, at least 5-6 of us would be dragged into it, & now being the crucial period, wouldn't it be very selfish if it affected others in their studies. Think after hearing what i've had to say, she more or less agreed with me. I told her straight that if that i found out that my friend lied to us eventually, then i would make sure he suffered a terrible fate, & would apologised to her via any means she wants out of me, even to the extend of issuing a public apology in the papers. But if it's really her fault then i wouldn't expect anything from her. Instead, i just want her to apologise sincerely to him that's all. Even if she's really guilty, i would still not shun her but instead would still treat her as my friend, cos i believe that everyone in this world makes mistakes, be it small or big. Thus, this matter would be closed temporarily till our exams are over.

As for her problems with my buddy, i told her straight that i do not wanna interfere anymore in their private life as i really do not wanna lose my buddy. I know that by arguing with him further would only caused more strains on our friendship. This was something which the both of them have to sort it out between themselves cos no one would be able to solve it for them, only they themselves could come up with the best possible solution. I know what she needs now from him is time, but i told her straight that time is something which he's unable to give her even though he said he could cos ultimately actions sometimes prove louder than words. I'm sure the both of them knows what i meant by that. However, i told her that what she needed to do now was to study hard for her exams & then to settle this issue after it. Of cos, i'm not asking her to make a decision asap though it's best for her & also for him if she decides soon. I mean she knows how my buddy treats her & his feelings towards her. In fact he has done quite alot for her, though some of his actions at times did turned her off. Nevertheless, i told her straight that there's a silly boy out there who loves her so much & would be willing to do anything for her. As a friend, i would encourage her to be with him(saying all these not cos he's my buddy) cos it's always better to be loved rather then to go love someone. That's a fact. Took me awhile to realise that, though through my own painful experience.

I've already done & said whatever that's within my means. Now just hafta wait & see what's the outcome for those 2 lovebirds. Ultimately if she decides that she would be happy being together with him then great! I would be wishing them eventual happiness from the bottom of my heart. Nonetheless, if she feels this relationship would not worked out then hopeed she would tell him straight then, don't drag around the bush any further. I believed if that happens, my buddy would be hurt but at least the hurt would not be so deep cos afterall they were not together yet. There's this chinese saying which goes "tuan tong bu ru chang tong" if i'm not wrong. It takes 2 hands to clap in a relationship. If both parties are unhappy then might as well not be together then. A relationship is like a pair of shoes. Irregardless how nice that pair of shoes may look on the outside, if ya feeling uncomfortable while wearing it, that means that shoes are lousy whereas an ugly, wornout or casual looking pair of shoes might be unpleasant to look at on the outside but once worn, they might be one of the most comfortabe shoes ever; that is what i defined as a good pair of shoes. This theory applies to relationships too. Like what Charlene of Twins once said in an interview,"If a guy breaks up with me, I would be sure to find out why. But seeking revenge would only make me unhappy. Breaking up is also part of a relationship, so if you are not happy together, you should learn to let go." I couldn't agree with her more. If the relationship would only heap upon u misery & troubles then what for holding on to it. Well, that's my advice to the both of them, & also to a few of my fellow friends who've been confiding in me over the problems which they faced in their relationships in recent times.

&faded to grey at 11:15:00 PM♥