Saturday, October 07, 2006
There's something lately tat's on my mind tat i really can't seem to grasp hold of the situation. I sometimes wonder wat tat silly gal is thinking, her actions & everything. I mean in the past was still alright but in recent weeks, especially tis past week, she's like a changed person. We had a few minor arguments but nothing more. I mean i dislike liars & she knows bout tat too but somehow or rather, i feel tat she's either lying to me or she's keeping something from me. Then the other nite, she went back on her word over something which we once discussed bout which made me quite disgusted upon hearing her changed decision. Moreover, went out with her earlier, but just as i had expected, ended up sending her home instead of going to some other places. Afterall, this wasn't the first nor second time already & somehow or rather i had a gut feeling tat things would turn out to be like tat. But, i know i can't entirelly blame her as she was out working the whole day on her modelling work. However, i just expected at least a call or sms from her once she got back but in the end, my hope was to be ended up in disappointment as it never came. Haiz. I know i've got feelings for her & she knows of it too. She also knows tat i'm not hoping for anything out of us, ok i would be lying if i really meant it, but at least for the time being or for these few mths. Cos afterall i'm still unable to get over my ex & she just broke up with her bf not too long ago. Told her before & she knows of it too but... Haiz. Girls would be girls, irregardless how well u think u know them, when tis type of situation happens on yourself, u wouldn't be able to figure it out too. Anyway, just let nature goes as it is. If we are fated to be together eventually, den we would be together in the end, nothing would be able to stop us though we would have to go thru a few obstacles i believed. Afterall, i recently learnt from someone bout something regarding fate tat's very meaningful; tat is " fate is something u can't run away from & u can't force it to happen. If it's meant to be, it will be."Thus, just decided to "walk 1 step, see 1 step". Afterall, love & relationships are not my no.1 priority at the moment. I just really enjoy her companionship, enjoy talking to her in the nite, enjoy almost everything bout her though she has all the qualities which i dislike in a girl. When i'm alone, i would start to think of her, wondering how is she, wat she's doing, whether she has eaten already anot blah blah blah. Haiz, when can my "vision" recover? I really wonder. Hope i really do not score a hat-trick with the girls in my life. Is tis wat they call fate? Haha!
Well, in the end, as i was in the west side after sending her back, decided to drop by Ben's b'day party at a pub beside SIM. So wierd rite? A pub there. So damn fucking ulu la! Even the taxi driver was also amazed tat there was such a place existing. Anyway, tis being my first trip there, so kinda excited to see for myself how the pub was. To my surprise, the ambience was quite cosy & relaxing. Definitely won't mind going there again in future although the only problem was the location. It's too freaking far! I still prefer Color Zone i think. Well, Ben was almost drunk as his friends kept forcing drinks on him. Afterall, it's the norm for b'day boys to drink till they are drunk. Tat was wat happened to me last yr, thankfully he was there by my side to look after me, hence here i was, by his side to stand by drinking on his behalf & to look after him in case he's drunk. These are wat cousins or brothers are for rite? Mainly drank beer, but in the end the killer drink was still one of the all-time favourites: waterfall! Haha! After drinking it, he was still alright, but once the kick came in, he couldn't take it & rushed to the toilet to puke. On the way out, he puked on the ground, sofa & worst, on a fatso ah beng! Haha! So funny la. As i was behind seeing all the drama, i noticed tat the fatso immediately scolded vulgarities & wanted to rush to the toilet to look for Ben. However, due to his eagerness or u could say, clumsiness, he fell straight on his bum on the way out of the pub. Damn funny sight to behold. Made me wondering whether to laugh or not at tat type of tense situation. Once in the toilet, he said in the bengish mannerism wat the fuck was wrong with Ben & everything. Luckily, Ben's friend apologised sincerely to tat fatso & explained to him nicely tat Ben was drunk already. I think he understood too cos i'm sure he was ever in tat kind of situation before. Anyway, i did apologised to him on Ben's behalf too though i was really prepared to kick his arse if he really wanted to find fault with Ben. Thank god nothing happened. Well, tat's basically the events tat happened since i came to the pub. Here are some pics of his b'day celebration:
Just part of the amount of booze we had
The "killer" Waterfall
Ben in action
Tat's wat cousins are for
One of the happiest thing tat happened to me so far this week was tat i was FINALLY able to meet up with my dearest BS after sooooo long. It's been like ages since we last hang out together ourselves. Really felt quite bad all along, she included, cos it's either her or me who ain't free when we are supposed to meet up throughout the years. A long time coming boy.. Anyway, though we haven't met up for so many years, however, the way we behaved & conversed was like as though we used to meet up with each other frequently. Maybe tat's the wierd thing between old friends. Can don't meet for a long time, but once meet up able to talk everything under the sun & moon even, & behave naturally with each other, dun need to act shy or anything. In short, i just enjoyed tis precious outing with her as i really do not know when's the next time we are gonna meet up again. Just hope we won't have to wait long. Anyway, she's still the same as before, cept tat she's really prettier now & has since shed away her tom-boy image to become more ladylike. But all the positives aside, still as dark as ever, BS non-stop etc.. Haha! However, i think she's more surprised to find out bout my changes. 1 thing for sure, she will definitely start considering me as her "jiemei" in future after going shopping with me earlier, as i sometimes know more gals stuffs den some gals themselves. So ironic rite. Too bad, i'm metrosexual BUT definitely not gay. Furthermore, we sat down & talk bout the past, & in truth, i think she was quite shock to hear of my past, especially the events tat happened during these past few mths. Anyway, i sincerely hope tat she & my bro would stay happily forever. Way to go BS! Hee hee.
There's something alarming which i would like to bring up in my blog as it really came to my attention suddenly. Well, a few mths back, when i started sch, i got to know tis bunch of local friends & we somehow or rather form a sort of clique comprising of 5 guys & 2 gals. Out of these 2 gals, 1 of them was called Ainsley, & i've gotta admit tat she is beautiful cept for the fact tat she looks "lian" hence i gave her the nick ah-lian. To me, not only was she pretty but also a very smart gal. However, i can't seem to grasp hold of the fact tat given her qualities, how come she's still with a guy whom i termed as a LOSER! Yes, he may be rich & drives a celica but wat the fuck, he's freaking damn possessive! Always thinking tat his gf is with guys & stuff, or lying to him & playing behind his back when the fact was Ah Lian was so damn loyal towards him. Always meeting him during her break time or after lessons & going home straight after sch. To me, i really think tat she has no life like tat, but so long she doesn't mind den we as friends got no rite to say anything. Yet to think he still has tat type of silly mentality. Freako! Anyway, i know deep down tat he was the main reason as to why Ah Lian fell out with Yvonne, misunderstanding her, thinking tat Yvonne betrayed & backstabbed her. In the beginning, i had my doubts too but now, i can really confirmed tat it was all cos of tat loser. He must have cooked up plenty of wonderful stories & lies tat only she would believe. Anyway, it's really only a matter of time before she comes to her senses. Afterall, he has already achieved part of his aim in isolating Ah Lian from her friends & of cos not to mention, us! Sometimes, i really pity her for having such a sensitive bf who doesn't have the basic simple trust in her at all. Furthermore, i really dislike tis guy after finding out wat he did to us in the past; found out not too long ago tat he actually stalked us on 1 of our outings in the beginning when we first started hanging out in a group. Still recalled going for lunch before singing K at K-Box Marina after sch. In the midst of our activities, no one actually realised tat he was following us at the back secretly all the time. Damn scary rite. In bright day light doing such stuffs. Like a retard stalker man! It was only later during 1 of their arguments tat he told her bout tis incident, & i got news of it through her during the time when there was bad blood between Yvonne & her. Anyway, i didn't really wanna interfere in their lives as it wasn't my business at all. However, received a sms from tat loser earlier in the evening telling me not to mixed around with Ah Lian or asked her out to any of the outings which i organised, & also saying all the crap bullshit tat he's a very sensitive guy towards guys around his gf. Damn fucked up rite! People never disturb him, he wanna make trouble for others. Anyway, replied him back in the best possible way, a touch full of sarcasm. Bloody asshole, just as i expected, didn't dare reply back. I think he's really won the award of BOC like wat Valentino & i had discussed bout. Well, just hoped tat he doesn't bother me anymore if not i wouldn't know wat i would do the next time he comes knocking into my life again. Hope tat coming monday he wouldn't go to sch & look me up cos all along he thinks i've something going on with Ainsley when the fact was we just shared a normal platonic classmates kind of friendship between us, so really do not know wat the fuck he's thinking bout.
Talking bout tat loser really made my blood boil boy! Anyway, looking forward to the weekend as i have a packed schdule ahead. Playing soccer later with Law & co., then going out with my mum in the afternoon cos i need her help to settle something tat has been troubling me for quite sometime already. In the nite watching the England match with my mates at my home. Then the next day which is Sunday, going to play soccer in the morning with Tong Long & co. before going to East Coast to relax & enjoy ourselves with Jesper, Summer & gang. Can't wait to kayak, blade, cycling etc. Really very excited bout the upcoming events. Oh ya, next wed would be going to O for Ben's b'day again. Cos his friend Alvin chio him out so no choice, hafta be there for him, just like how he's been there for me during my b'day over the yrs.
&faded to grey at 6:00:00 AM♥
