Monday, October 02, 2006
The past week has been like going thru hell for me as the word ASSIGNMENT, ASSIGNMENT, ASSIGNMENT kept appearing in my mind, even in my dreams! So much workload, so many assignments to hand up, of which a few were due by the end of the wk, so many unfinished business to take care of. Aarghz!!! Fucking stressful man! Afterall, it's been freaking ages since i last touched books. In fact, i even pondered over the idea as to why was i torturing myself at my age now when many of my peers are out working in the society. But deep down, i know it's all for the sake of myself as it would only be beneficial for my career in the future. Furthermore, i've got no one cept myself to blame for the plight i'm in now as i did not put in effort in my studies in the past. Thus, just buckled down to my knees & set about my mindset straight to do well & to finish up all those killer ASSIGNMENTS! Recently saw a very meaningful sentence by Sir Winston Churchil though forgotten the place which i saw it. The message was " The farther back u can look, the farther forward u are likely to see" Took me a long time to realised it's meaning, but nevertheless as the saying goes, it's never too late to realised ur mistakes...
Lately been down in luck too. One of them was i had to redo all my work as my PC crashed & had to be re-formatted. Damn sucky lor the feeling. Hence, was late in handing up 1 of my assignment whereby i was being deducted marks for late submission. Furthermore, as i did not back up all my data, hence, lost all my pics, music files etc.. Haiz.. So sad lor.. However, thank god my bad luck din transcend into my favourite team's fortune, Man Utd, as they defeated Newcastle over the weekend convincingly. Though everyone would be the first to admit tat the best player tat day was definitely Ronaldo, however no one would disagree tat the finishing prowess & goals from Solskjaer was vitally essential in beating Newcastle. Damn good to see him back, playing at the theatre of dreams where he truely belongs to. Finally, the baby-faced assassin is back!!! Beware Chelsea & the rest of the premiership.
(U are my Solskjaer, my only Solskjaer, u make me happy, when skies are grey, and alan shearer, was fucking dearer, so please don't, take my Solskjaer away...)
However, in the middle of all my killer work, i did eventually finished up watching the show "Only You" which i brought it up in my last posting. Ending was exactly how i wanted it to be. A happy ending whereby the 2 lovebirds are together, along with their son(twist to the story). So sweet rite? How i wish my love life was like theirs. So hope anyone who's reading this would go & watch the show soon. Really worth the time watching it. The pic below basically shows the whole summary of the show in the end.
(So sweet rite? Happy family re-united!)
Anyway, after seeing the show, how i really wished for a complete family. Afterall, there's only a few close ones in my life tat knows of my personal life. If only i could turn back time.. I would do so many things for him. Wouldn't have made him so worried & upset for me. Being sensible & all. Haiz. Last tuesday was the 6th yr since he left us. Time really flies. With a blink of an eye, 6 yrs have just gone by. How i wish to just be able to see him again. I would really give up anything & everything in tis world just to have tat oportunity again, but i know deep down in my heart tat it's almost impossible. Wondering how is he now? His whereabouts & everything. I really miss him sooooo much. No one in tis god damn world would forever be able to replace him in my heart, my life. The only person whom i ever respect the most in the world. To him: "No matter where u are, i sincerely wish u happiness in watever things u do. Dun worry, i'll never ever forget u & u would forever hold a special place in my heart." Dedicating the below poem for him:
" So many images come to mind
whenever i speak your name;
It seems without you in my life
things have never been the same.
What happened to those lazy days
when i was just a child;
When my life was consumed in you
in your love, and in your smile.
What happened to all those times
when i always looked to you;
No matter what happened in my life
you could make my grey skies blue.
Some days i hear your voice
and turn to see your face;
Yet in my turning... It seems
the sound has been erased.
Who will i turn to for answers
when life does not make sense;
Who will be there to hold me close
when the pieces just don't fit.
Oh, if only i could turn back time
and once more hear your voice;
I would tell you that out of everyone
in this world, you would still be the one.
Please always know i love you
and no one can take your place;
Years may come and go
but your memory may never be erased.
Today, Jesus, as You are listening
in your home above;
Would you go and find him
and give him all my love."
As expected, i was very upset the day before. I was restless & doing things half-heartedly. Still felt upset when i thought of it. Thankfully, i had a dinner celebration at Manhatten's @ Plaza Sing. It was our reward for being the champ in Eddy's church soccer tournament. Still remembered the day when he invited me to play for his region C. As i had the free time, hence agreed to it. For 2 whole mths, i had to sacrificed my sat afternoons to play under the hot sun every week. Looking back, it was really worth it as we not only became the champion, but in the process enjoyed ourselves thoroughly & making a bunch of new friends. I would forever remember scoring & breaking the deadlock in the final match, which in turn swung the whole game around as we were being pecked back by the opposition for most of the game. In the end, we not only became champions, but also setting the record as the 1st team to go unbeaten throughout the whole history of their church soccer tournament, in the process scoring 23 goals & only letting in a SINGLE goal only. 1 of the best teams i've ever enjoyed playing for. Full of teamwork & unselfish play. Just can't wait for next season to begin, can't wait to don the orange jersey once more. Below is our team pic taken before a match.
1, 2, 3, Go Rays!!!
Well, after the dinner, went out with my buddy Eddy to relax. Really didn't wanna go back home cos i knew my mind would start to wander around, thinking bout all the sad memories when i'm lying alone on my bed. In the end, went to K Box Paradiz to sing K, relax & de-stress. I could still remember the look on the counter staff face. She was like wondering to herself how come 2 guys were singing K together in the nite, like as though we were gay partners. Haha! Quite funny though. Luckily, Eddy won the dice game between them(mon nite promo) hence we only needed to pay for the drinks, no cover charge included. Both of us really enjoyed ourselves man, singing songs which we never sang before, taking pics & also videos of each other like as though we were pro singers. Damn funny sight to behold. My this buddy, as his chinese was even suckier den me, kept singing the same few chinese songs over & over again, i think 7 times per song if i'm not wrong. Haha! Tink he's gonna kill me when he sees tis. Anyway, as luck would behold, i received a very surprised call from a very special someone, saying she was bored & stuffs. Hence invited her to come down & join us if she really wanted to. Afterall, it's always better to have a gal around when u sing K as can sing duets together. Though was quite brief, nevertheless still enjoyed her presence as i've really not seen her for a very, very long time. Below are some of the pics we took tat nite.
The Professional
The Emotional
Best Buds @ K-Box
Someone Special
&faded to grey at 11:48:00 PM♥
