Living for a New Tomorrow.

Friday, September 22, 2006

"Thank god it's Friday", this sentence supposed to mean alot to me every week as i always look forward to fridays cos no more classes to attend to. However, and sadly to say, i did not feel the way i normally do today. Even till now, i'm also feeling quite confused. In fact been feeling confused the whole freaking day cos i just wanna get the problem solved & out of my mind. Been thinking whether is it this problem or is it tat problem? Haiz.. Just too many things on my mind lately. Last nite, went to bed feeling down. What turns out to be just a normal usual routine talk with someone ended up in some sort of an argument like tat. To be honest, i'm also not sure whether is it termed as an argument or just being upset or pissed at each other. Anyway, did not like the feeling at all, especially when i woke up & saw a msg tt further irked me. Best part was, tat person wasn't the least remorseful & treated as though nothing had happened. I also have to blame myself for being quite a busybody as i went into friendster & multiply to view her profile & blog respectively. Saw things which i feel i shouldn't have seen as it only made me felt worst. I do not know what's wrong with me? Is it cos i've developed feelings for her tat's why i'm feeling so confused now? Remembered a part of her blog which although didn't mention names but in a way indirectly hinted me something. And saw the various pics of her past. Well, told myself tat's her life, & i've got no rights to interfere in it though really felt upset after seeing all those things. Haiz.. No one to blame except myself for breaking my own promise to my ownself,(Calvin next time dun itchy backside anymore k) Hence, after some careful thought, i've decided to forget bout everything & just lead my life the way i want it to be. Did not went to school today as i was quite moody(reason quite obvious) & also having migraine. Furthermore, i made used of the additional free time to do my PPS assignment. The thought of next wednesday being the dateline for submission has already given me a few strands of white hairs! Haha! A bit the exaggerating i know.

Oh, guess wat, received a very surprising call from someone tat calls herself "the future genius of the world" early this morning. Bloody hell! Disturbed my beautiful & precious sleep. Anyway, had a nice long talk with her. Actually, i always enjoyed my time with her, be it on the phone chatting with each other or just hanging out with one another, since the first day i knew her, which was like ages ago. But this idiotic gal is liked in my eyes, some sort of super hero like tat who appears out of the blue then disappear for a very long time before appearing in my life once more. Used to say bout her being "tao nao pai" cos she is always doing silly stuffs. Stuffs which u never thought tat she would still be doing now, considering her age & future occupation. But as the saying goes, a leopard would never change its spots, & sad to say, it's really still the truth with her. Just sincerely hope tat she changes for the sake of her life & future.(if u happened to be reading thru my blog, just wanna let u know tat i really hoped u would change, & remember tat no matter wat happens, i'll never forsake u & would be there for u when u need me, be it as a friend or wat so ever k.. Happy Belated B'day!!!)

Well, started to watch this korean series titled "Only You" (picture above) in the evening as i really could not continue with my work anymore. Was feeling damn stressed up & brain dead. This was quite an old show considering the fact tat it was shown last yr in 2005. Furthermore, i was only hooked onto korean drama shows in the recent past few months. The reviews i heard from my friends & from the internet was quite good, but still u never knew until u watched it for yourself. Not surprisingly, the show turns out to be quite good & like wat i had epected of. A very sweet but sad romantic story. The story is roughly like this: This girl called Eun-jae decides to go to Italy to learn how to become a chef to attain her childhood dream of making Italian food. She adores spaghetti and all sorts of pasta ever since she was a little kid. In Italy, she meets this guy called Lee-jun, who is an heir to a family fortune and has come to Italy in search of his mother. They go out and get to know each other for only six days but she falls madly in love with him. Six years pass and in Korea, she meets Lee-jun once again... The drama takes place in Venice, Italy and is a story of how a young girl finds her way to the heart of a rich young man. Well, so far only manged to catch 3 episodes, but will be catching more of it later in the nite when i'm much more free.

Anyway, i finally changed my whole friendster profile abeit with the help of someone. Really high time i did tat already cos everytime i view it, somehow or rather, i would be reminded of some painful memories as my previous profile was done by someone i used to love deeply in the past. Changed & added a few stuffs which i'm quite satisfied now upon seeing it. Any of u tat's reading my blog, pls feel free to go check out my friendster profile. Oh, & special thanks to tat someone who helped me with part of re-doing my profile. Really appreciate it very much as u had to stopped doing ur work to help me & in the process did not get to eat the tang yuan which ur mum made for u. Sorry bout it & thanks once more. Signing off here with a sneak preview of the show which i mentioned above...

&faded to grey at 11:07:00 PM♥